Feeling freaking down now.Everything just happened the way I don't want it to be.We must not always hope for the best,because it will bring you down out of sudden.I don't want to say much about it.But ya,I hope I can handle it.
I might join Soo tomorrow night :).Honestly,I really miss her,but is not as much as last time cause some of it belongs to someone else already,someone who I really loved before.What ever things she did before are still with me.I am holding back the memories again.Not all but some (:
"We knew that isn't good for us but we still waiting for nothing.And hurt our soul by self again and again.This is how stupid we did behind someone we love."
Guess what?I just got to know my results yesterday.And yeah,I passes ALL the subjects :]..
So soon it will gonna be the starting of Sem3,well,I hope I can handle the subjects I am taking for the semester, which are Moral Studies,Business Principles,Advanced English and Computing Principles.
Oh well,my current timetable is still okay,no Friday class. HAHAA
What I really hope now is,I wish there will be something fun to do during the New Year eve.I don't want to celebrate alone at home =/
Left another 2 more days till 2011.
I'm back.Been neglecting this blog for a week,I realized that.Since now I am free,I am gonna updates something.Here they go.
To be honest this sem break is not what I thought it will be,nothing much to do.All I did was staying at home 24/7 on the net or just went out shopping and have supper with friends.That's it.Lifeless,right?? =/
And guess what,recently I love listening to old songs.Asking me WHY?Me,myself also not sure.Well,maybe because of the meaning of the lyrics.I really do like emo songs a lot,especially those with piano instrument,they are just great,really touched my heart.
I have been thinking too hard about it after I get to know that news few days back,oh well,is not 'shocking' to me since she once straight to my face admit it but I never thought it will happens so fast.Is just that I have been a dumbo for quite sometimes.Really stupid,I didn't noticed it earlier,if I did,I will never give in.(I am sure no one knows what I am talking about,but believe me this is something that not so important to me anymore(: )
to the bitches and jerks:thanks for your complains and bad-stabs me to the bf all the times.thank keww so much.i appreciate them.and i will accept them one-by-one.
to the bf:oh well,you believe their words,go ahead and i am sure one day you will realize something too.they don't know me much and they judge me and the stupidest thing is you believe them.GOOD thing!and do they actually know you that well??please think!how long we know each other compare to you and them?
i am really speechless about it and i don't bother whether are you reading this or not,my so called "dearest boy friend"
Went to Sunway Lagoon on Wednesday with college mates.
Had been a very long time didn't get there.
The tickets to get in to the parks are kindda expensive,we choose the cheapest one,I guess.
The RM60,which included,dry,water and wild life parks.
But,I enjoyed with them,so is okay and worth of it. :)
All of us except Darren not in the picture.
On the way to water park.
(joyee,vicky,amy)
I think we had spend about 5 hours inside the parks.
Rain for a while and stopped.We really make a lot of noise through out the whole day.
Enjoyed very much with all the jokes and craps we talked.HAHA
Me and ShaSha.
This was ShaSha's idea to posed like this.
with Vicky.
While waiting for others we went Tutti Fruitti. Cost me RM14. Oh NOOOO!
Luckily shared with Amy.
What for dinner?
We went somewhere to had steamboat. "Tasty Pot"
Had 4 different flavor soups.And of cause the most I love was tomyam.
All the girls except NatNat.
And again,really had so much fun with them for the day and night time.
And like always,they always love to 'zat' each other.But still,we all can take it.No hard feelings.
Alright,I am suppose to go clubbing tonight but sadly I didn't make it.
Well,I believe there will still have another chance,so yeah,is Okay! =P
Just before I prepared myself to bed,I took a deep breath and looked up at the sky.
I know,talking to the moon sounds stupid,but I always did that when ever I feel like telling out something but don't know who to tell to.
I do talk to my doggy,Hugo.And I think he understand me.(do I sound crazy??)
I talked to the moon again,I wonder do that person talking to the moon too or not =/
I cried again for the same reason, damn!
I think again the same mistakes that I've done, damn!
It just happened out of the sudden.
Is late night now,but I am still awake,recently having insomnia.I can't have a nice sleep,I wonder what's bothering me.Since I know I can't sleep so early,so yeah,went to have a drink with one of my friend just now at Starbucks having hot chocolate :) Can you imagine,the night is so freezzy and cold and you are having hot chocolate?I love the feeling.
Okay,let's jump to the point.
The current me.
Okay,I realized this ever since the first day I am doing it.But I do not understand,why am I still continue being like this.Honestly,I am not happy with the way it is cause I know it's not right,and will hurt the other one,yet I am doing it.I am a bad person.And I know people will label me and rumors around,and that's eventually spoil my reputation.But I have my own reason doing so,I know this sounded like I am selfish.I am sorry.I wonder will this works,will this bring happiness to me and others.I will not do anything beyond the limit *control my actions*
Relationship.
We went out for a drink and have a talk just now,since I got to know he is feeling down and frustrated after he text me few days back.Still,a relationship can screwed things up if either one of us do not want to commit anymore into it.I wonder,what's a relationship means to these people,a game,a trial or maybe to do satisfaction?I really have no idea,I can't judge or say anything about it since myself definitely a failure.Anyway,if you are not ready to take a relationship seriously please do not start it,because it does hurt.
Yes,I am not perfect and you may say I am being hypocrite but listen.I admit at first I took my relationship as a trial,and I realized I was wrong after awhile,end up I really fall for him.I really do take him serious,if not I wouldn't cried so much for him after the break-up.So now you can see how badly I handled my first relationship (oh well,only hell knows how horrible it was :S) and this is the result if you take it as a trial at the beginning.I bet you will feel regret if you are doing or plan to do so,cause I do feel it too now.To me,I will only accept people who I really interested with or I willing to know him better.And he was one of them.So ya,I take my relationship serious,no,or maybe too serious,I am not sure.
After some times,I realized there's only one reason for a person to leave you,he or she do not love you anymore.Simple,easy and straight-to-the-point,doesn't it?Reasons other than this are just plainly excuses and bullshit.Is better for us to think this way,even though heart will be broken and since this is the most hurtful one.Still,sometimes a superfluous excuse is much more way better than nothing.Right?right!
Knowing his problems,suddenly it brings me to my past.I am not feeling good now but I can deal with it,no worries.It reminds me a lot of things and memories,especially the silly promises we had promised on each other.Sometimes,it really make me smile and laugh.But eventually,promises are made to be broken.
Anyway,I hope he will be fine and stay strong for all the time being no matter what's happen at the end.Take good care,my dear friend.
Rihanna ft. Eminem: Love the way you lie part 2.
On the first page of our story,the future seems so bright.
And this thing turned out so evil,I don't know why I'm still surprise.
Even angels have their wicked schemes and you take death to new extremes.
But you'll always be my hero,even though you lost your mind.
.........
p/s: I am currently thinking of you,and I will make sure it will fade away soon.
a serious relationship is not as easy as you thought. people will never know they actually had been neglected the others for sometimes. and they never know it's actually hurting the other.
p/s: Zen,hope you are alright, I'll be here for you when ever you needed me. Hope to see you very soon. Keep it simple and move on,maybe there's a way to turn things back.
Due to my busy days and final, I know I had been neglecting my blog what seems econ ago, I am sorry.
Just finished my 3 papers on Saturday, so yeah, left 1 more to go which is on this coming Wednesday, Principle Accounts. OH NOOOO!
Easy not easy?? is not what I asked myself, but "Can I PASS all the subjects?!" I really really hope I will not retake any papers anymore!!
Before the final starts, me and my friends had took some pictures :)
But I'll only showed 3 pictures here. HAHA
You know what, I feel both of us here look pretty though XD
Oh ya, this cute little girl here is NatNat, we called each other sis....HEEEEE ;)
We have quite lot of similar things to talk about. *owwhh*
See, I was really studying for my CTS paper. lol
So, I really do hope that I can pass it. *pray*
I looked weird here, I know :O but who care's?!
and once again, this is Christy @ Ms. Kuchi-Kuchi
I called here that for some reasons ya! (she should knows WHY...LOL)
Nothing much to say about college life, so will just ends here.
Oh yeah, to those of my college mates"All the best for FINALS"
