111. The things happened before camp.

Sorry that I've abandon my blog for so long :(

Life still good after all :)

Today, I've just finished my English presentation. pheww!! I guessed, I did a good job =)

But but, computing quiz on this Friday and presentation on next Thursday. wth!!

I need a break so badly,please. Before everything starts, I mean Finals. omg!!

And yeah, today was totally a good day for me.TEHEEEEE. I SAW HIM :]

Had been chatting with him yesterday night, and today....woooow! he appeared in front of me. lalalalaaaaa :p

Just felt like screaming on that second, happy until I don't care bout my lunch (the maggie goreng, I mean. hahaaa)

I wonder, when I can really be in the same class with him, he is like so smart and me so NOT :(

Anyway, this is not so important to me, but just feel a little crazy about it. lol

Skip that, I went leadership camp on last Friday. it was 3days 2 nights camp at Selesa Resort, Bukit Tinggi.

Will be posting about it after ShaSha's upload the pictures, for her to upload takes ages, so be patient please. lol

SHA SHA FASTER UPLOAD ALL THE PIC LAH!! >.<

Before went to camp, on Thursday. Went Snowflakes with Minty Min. hahah =)

Let's see some pictures of us. 

Had spicy pan mee before I had my Snowflakes.

This pan mee make me cried, but damn yummmy :p 

I love spicy, but I just can't take too much of it. argghhhh!

 Minty Min with her bowl of Snowflakes.

heeee =)

 This me, I looked so fake man, see my S.M.I.L.E.

so yucksss! I sometimes don't like my smile, seriously, I don't know why I can't smile nicely lah. ishh

And ya, I looked old too with my this formal, Vicky told me that :(

Btw, I have my presentation that day, that's why formal attire. hahaaa

That night, on skype with my dear Leina again :)

As usual, talked about our 'sam si'. We girls always like this section so much, and to me, especially at night time, the feel just so right. haaa. It will just feel like something inside just pop out.

Luckily, this time I can stayed strong, I didn't cry. lol.

before the emo talked start. see our reaction. lol 

after the talked. see our reaction again. lol

so much different,right?? arghhh!

And again, dear please be strong and firm whatever it happens,okay.You know what's good and bad for you. Happiness always come first. About me, I guess, I am totally nothing already. Cause I realize I am nothing to him since that day, so I don't think he worth my time to wait and hope for :) I used to think what will happen, what if he this and what if he that?? those kindda questions, I guess, you know what kind,don't you??. hahaaa. (girls ma,right??..lol) but now, it doesn't really matter to me anymore. Perhaps, the feeling of like/love to him is fading, as day passed by :). I am relieve from being trap into his world. IF, one day me and him get together again, then it will happens lah. just IF lah. haaaa :) I don't think too much about that anymore lah. silly mind. I just wish him happy with his current gf now. =). I can always see them together so happily, I don't deny at first I don't feel nice, but times passed, the feeling turns to feels it is normal and okay to me already. lol. I am glad that I can stand strong. hahaaaaa. 

Once more, I will be updating about the camp soon. 

p/s : ShaSha faster upload,okay??!! HEEEE =)

110.

Another day has gone. Bye!
Yesterday night was a good one :) I enjoyed the night with them. Went Switchblade then to Uma Rani.
But but, went home late at night, this morning mum sounded me :(
Oh well, I guess I should not go out at night so often, was my fault, I understood. Sorry.

Hmm. Sunday will be the day I go shopping with my mum and sis, is like always.
Today, we went to Nichii to get some formal attired for my sis, cause she needs to go for an interview for her medicine course. Mum bought me a top :) sis got a lot of her clothes. I guessed, we spent about RM450 today =/ to me that's too much for a day spend. Money is really important.
After the shopping, straight drove back to our Old Town. lol. sis paid for the meal, thank you,sis. haha :)
And bumped into Bel and her collegemate Zoe. I guessed, she surely happy for the accompany. haha.
" Happy Birthday, Bel :) "

109.

Time flies so fast without me realizing it. 

These past few days, I was busy with my assignments and quiz. At last, all done!  :)

Result for mid-term were all out :(

disappointment :'(

just felt like crying after knowing :'(

Oh ya, yesterday catch up with yl before my class started.

Went Mcd for our breakfast.

As usual she waited for me for half an hour. So sorry for that =/

I am glad, she is being happier than the last time we met.

yl, is a very good senior to me, we are more like sis though. haha

Hope to see her again :)

I love talking to her, I wonder why. haha

Maybe the way she is lah. hehe

Okay, I know I looked damn ugly, ignore please. haha XD

And she is yl :)

Miss high school life suddenly, I remember how random and naught I was. haha

will write about it, if I have the mood :p

108.

Hi again!

Due to the nuffnang, I need to be frequent to update my blog,

so that I can earn some money here :)

so people, if you are kind enough please click on the advertisement on the nuffnang bar 

*thank you very much* 

OH YEAH! 

as you can see here, these are the pictures that I wanna show off. lol

Nope, I didn't go for the Jay Chou concert :(

this t-shirt was one of my friend helped me to bought it.

thank you,Van <3 haha

>> the front part of the shirt 

( I bet many people will feel jealous of it..haha, too bad!)

the back part <3

OHHH OHHH!! this me with my jay chou.

wakakkakaka =]

super love this <3

I really miss the chance to see him :(

you know what, I will go for the next time, I don't care!!

I really really love JAY CHOU!

his songs are like OMG! so touched my heart

though I don't really understand the lyrics(some) but from the melody, the piano instrument, it already enough for me to love the song.lol
I really wasted not continue with my piano lessons last time :'(
if not, I can play his songs :(

anyway, listen to these few songs, I bet you will fall in love too. haha

我不配, 说好的幸福呢, 安静, 給我一首歌的時間, 屋顶, 夜曲, 說了再見, 開不了口

these are just a few that "lam sei" me songs. lol

as you can see too, I really love emo emo songs a lot. haha

that's why sometimes it makes me mood swing (stupid reason, I know..haha)

Alright, I shall stop here for today

stay tuned ya! 

and and, please click on NUFFNANG

thank you again :)

have a nice day people and you (if you read this :] )

107.

Sometimes, it really pissed me off when suddenly someone told me someone was talking non-sense about me. I am not always in a mood to feel the jokes or something,okay. Yes, sometimes I can accept all kindda shit you'll say whether about me or not, but please lah, not all the time. Is really spoil and piss me off lah. I do need the respect,okay sometimes. I guess, everyone feel the same too. 

Okay, life has been good, can't complain anything. Maybe the result ruin my mood, but still I accept it :). Frankly, I do not understand why so many people asked the same questions, "why you do not have a bf? , there are so many friends of yours have bf/gf why not you?". lol. and I just answered them the same answer. haha. I need freedom and happiness right now lah, this kindda thing is not what I really need or want also :) I am just 19th, enjoy first. I don't want to feel any break-down again because of this, its hurts like hell and waste my time to recover the hurt and pain. I am not being mean or what now.lol. When the right time comes, he will just appears to me. haha. Take time k, my friends (you know who you are..XD). And thanks to Leina about the opinions and advised. Hope to see you soon with Sharon :)

Oh ya, I just love this song. Try listen to it. It touched my heart.

106.

Just back from drink at Shantini, Tropicana City Mall with Leina :)
Had been so long we didn't meet up, I guess almost a year plus, until today we met
The passed few weeks we had already planned to get a drink together, but there were always pullback at last minute
Really had a good time together with the talked, the drink, the environment.
She taught me a lot of life values, which really open up my mind about almost every thing that I am dealing with, she is being mature, like serious, not with all the childish mindset. And of cause, she more mature thinking compare to me.
Honestly, I thought I was the only one who suffer from all kindda problems, but now I realized many people out there suffering more pain and hurt than I do.
Basically, we spent time telling out about our personal problems which are kindda confusing to us.
She make me feel like I had wasted my time waiting and hoping for nothing at that point. Though this was hurt but I realized I am doing something silly, and I will stop myself from becoming more silly.

Leina,
3 years, don't just waste that time you guys were having lots of time together with those memories.

But I do wish, you are choosing the right way to handle your relationship, if that make you feel much more happier then you should go on with that decision. And of cause, I am here to support you. 

I am sure, you are way mature than me :) 

I admit, sometimes I being ridiculous and naive especially when comes to love, but I am glad that you are here to help me out from this thoughts. The things that you said were all rights, I agreed! :O

And thanks for reminding me so many times about 'that'. haha

And 'that' makes me feel I really done too much for him for the pass 6-7 months, "that yes I should stop!"
After the talked, I really felt I was a bit childish when having my relationship. lol. and yes, I felt the same too, this things have just done too fast. I regretted it, but there is no point for me to think about it again and again. You too, what's done is done, just forget and move on.
Life is complicated and rumours are here and there, but if he really cares and believes about what other people said, then you know what to do next, as you and me also said "what's the point when either both don't trust on the other one", right? I went through this before, so ya, seriously really no use being in a relationship without trusty and honesty.
I hope, you really made up your mind before deciding :) and I am sure I will be happier with what and who I am now. Let go is what I am doing since that incident happened, I will not be a dumbo any longer, I just waited and done too much :) haha. No more fantasy. No more, really no more!
And hell yeah, we still have a long way to think about the marriage and further, so we should enjoy first, and care less about it now. lol. freedom is what we have and need now. =)

p/s: we will find out happiness sooner or later, it just takes some time!

105. Sis,you will always in me. IMY. ILY.

This post, is to you Annie JieJie.

A couple of days ago, there were news talking about the fire burning house taken away 2 life.

Unfortunately, she was my sis,Annie and the little baby,Artina.

I was shocked when I just get the news, I just couldn't believe it at first until I saw it on TV. =(

There is nothing much I can say about it, because I am still not that okay yet.

Annie jiejie <3,

Even though, we did not have any blood related but you treated me very well since I was born. We were like real sis, I believe. 

Your cared.

Your loved.

Your jokes.

Your laughter.

Your advised.

Just your everything.

I shall never forget. 

That night you make me looked pretty. thank you. :) 

And to me, you will always the prettiest little lady in the world. :)

I still remember how and what you had advised me about the love problem that I told you. 

Annie jiejie, thanks for everything you gave to me. I promise, I will stay happy and get a better one :) I was just about to tell you that I have move on, but I do not have the chance to tell you this is real. I know you will feel proud and love me more after knowing this. So I am letting you know here, and hopefully, you read this in 'your world out there'. Jie, I will take care of myself, you too with your little girl <3

This is the only photo that I have.

R.I.P Annie and Artina.

I will never forget  you.

I miss you.

I love you.

Thank you for everything.

Annie JieJie <3