154. Pasar Malam

B-O-R-E-D

i am feeling it now, its late but i don't want to sleep :/

nothing to do that's why i am writing something here :)

hmm..let's talk about my day till night for today :D

as usual when college early in the morning

can't woke up,raining make my sleep so wonderful

then dad came in and woke me up, nagged me also :(

faster faster i rushed myself to college

felt so sleepy and tired

and i was sick :(

sore throat + flu + cough

:'(

took some pictures before entered Statistics class 

can see my eyes look so tired?? :(

 me and Susan

after classes, Zheng Hui and Sze Yung came and picked me up to Alvin's apartment

did our assignment, well, just a bit

but hey, we DID something :P

due is tomorrow, but sir let us hand-in later :P

then finished our half-way done assignment 

we went Connaught pasar malam

know some secrets. hahaa

and me too talked too much :S should not have told. *urghhh*
*shhhhh, don't tell any one!* 
but at least a little something more about him... hahaaa :)

sha and amy were there too.

had our dinner there :)

came back late, dad showed his 'face' to me :S

153. Fugly Night :S

** Note: girls or guys that go clubbing doesn't mean he or she is BAD

don't put he or she in 'bad impression' thoughts :)

24.06.11

went Mist for the first time, 

yeah! just beside Milk.

place is bigger and more happening, as what I feel :P

waited for the guys to come was like so freaking longggggggggg >.<

need to gather then only can get it.

luckily, have Leina who gave the number to do the booking, if not, confirm full house.

but to booked a table was a hard job, cause they were so 'ah ji ah jor' =.=

anyway, we just get there that night, a number of 9 of us.

while waiting for the dudes, met Vicky's high school friends. lol

(world is so small,right?..haha)

then saw Khai again. always bumped to him in club. lol

some pictures before we get in :)

with susan.

 jo, san, and tiff :)

 vicky, shasha and me :)

 time was getting 'HOT'

they came, it time to get 'HIGH' people, yooooo!

this-and-that-this-and-that

joined Vic's friends at last. opened 4bottles that night.

though we introduced ourselves, I forget their names.lol

DJs there were freaking awesome, played lots of hit techno music

time to dance!

shake-shake-boom-boom!

then saw Amanda there too. lol.

 dance floor was so crowded. OMG!!

hahaaa.

went up before I get too high. lol

saw Susan, she was drunk, I guessed.

so I just accompany her at the table with some friends around, didn't get down to the dance-floor.

honestly I was so freaking fine before that

but when just get picture of Y, I started sobbing d. fuckkk!

just to make him away from my memories, I promised that the last day I can tears or whatever about him.

after the day, will be no more!

drink-drank-drunk.

i was really incautious, i forgotten a lot that i speak out.

but all i know was, i wanted to forget him.

that's all! REALLY! 

i cried out loud, i realized i look FUGLY that night

( arghhh...fucking embarrassing man!!)

thanks for them who were there for me :)

I JUST KNOW, I LOOKED SUPER DUPER UGLY THAT NIGHT!

='(

when I get a little sober, I was feel like 

"WTF, did i said? WTF, did i did?...OH GOSHHH"

but anyway, it really works this time, 

although, I was ugly that night, but I make it, I feel relief and super fine now :)

was a great night and unforgettable night for me. lol

after clubbing, went sha's house for a stay.

done, like finally finish.

with all the things left behind me now :)

p/s: though i still like you, i'll never show it.

152. Amy is 19 :)

23/06/11

"Happy Birthday Amy"

you are 19 now, the last being 'TEEN" year.lol

not to mention, I am too, very soon :(

 

yape, she is AMY!

 

honestly, at first my dad don't allow me go out that day,

but I told him I will not going out on Saturday, so he let me go :)

went Mid Valley to delicious for the dinner celebration

as Amy wanted it :D

13 of us there

 

the atmosphere is pretty, with this decoration

 us without Jacalyn, she was late that day

played with ShaSha's new camera, is so special, see the touch-light.lol

like bumblebeeee.lol

the dishes there were just okayyyyy, not really what I really like. haha

but still can considered good ( I think..haha)

then with the surprise Darren gave to Amy. lol

the cupcakes cake :)

as Amy dieing for it. lol

such a good bf.

the colourful cupcake cakes. 

yummmm yummmm. taste really good.

 

the girls, but no Jac 

 

after dinner, went The Garden for a walk, and some snapping section.

hahaaaa :P

group picture, without Denzie. haha

me and the bday girl, mee meee :)

 shasha's sexayyy pose 

'vogue' LOL. as you can see,many failed. lol

 the guys turned. lol. MICHAEL the betrayer. haha

JacJac, Amy, Joyee :)

 Mr.Michael and me, first picture with him since SEM 1. lol

with ppVan and ppMee. lol :P

with 2 perhentian b*tches. wahahaha

ShaSha and Amy.

like this picture <3

a last picture, me and the bday girl again :)

btw, many said I don't look like me that day. lol. hahahaa

I wonder why too. Heee :P

151. today's last

coming back again,
yesterday was Amy's birthday, of course celebrated with her
but will update about it soon :)
anyway, "HAPPY 19th Birthday, Amy!"

I really felt touched,
when I received a text message from one of my friend during the dinner (yesterday)
I almost want to tears out after I read the text,
I am not so sure why,
maybe she cared too much for me?
or maybe the reminder of today's the last day for me to....?
I really don't know.
kindda felt a little unhappy but I handled the feeling, no ruin the celebration :)
luckily have shasha who always cheer people up! :P
thanks,sha :)
I kept it to myself, and the laughter make me forget the pain and the thoughts.

so yeah,
I had make a promise to myself and my dears,
that today will be the last day for me to tears and think about Y.
I really want to wash away the memories that break me down
cause we don't see any turning back, it seems like Y has fallen to another person.
there are a lot times, I find reasons of my actions to his actions.
and I realized this is really something silly I did to relate myself to him.
I will accept the truth. I will not tell lies to myself any more.
I am tired. I am just fooling myself and feelings.
I have waited almost a year, how silly right?
so I will really take this night, a great night for the end.
bye!

150. Messy Mind :(

is like, had been a week I didn't touch my blog.

is not like I don't want to, but I have nothing much to say about. haha

oh well, life is like always up-and-down

today just finished my mid-term

just got a feeling like,

"Ahhhh! at last I left with the burden.."

is not like, am saying studying is a burden, but doing last minute revision can killed

I experienced it, yet I still doing so. lol

*stubborn* 

honestly, I don't really like to organize stuff/event

cause is really something that stress me up, 

I prefer something or someone confirm with me asap, if not it really gonna mess me up :(

last minute thing, usually not my thing when comes to planning

hopefully, there is no next time.

like seriously, NO MORE unless confirmed.

and about the outings, I really feel I am a bad daugther 

I know that my parents will not like me going out so many times so often

but is like, me being careless about their feelings.

I am thinking this, maybe because I am being a little more mature :S

sometimes, I really feel sorry and bad to both my dad and mum.

am I being selfish?

just SORRY! cause I don't know what else can I say :(

dad always said, I do or decide things without his knowing

the way I ask his permission is just like I am telling him not asking him :(

(actually, I feel that too..sorry)

things are being more complicated, I guess

or maybe is just me making/thinking things this way

 how I wish, I know the truth

"who or what is that"

so I wouldn't be like an idiot and mess up with my feelings.

FML

CW is back, but I know he wouldn't want to see me.

but I just hope at least give us 1 day that we can hang around, just like last time ;/

my mind is really messy with all sort of things that I am going through lately

I need a clear answer,please

please let me know, I rather being hurt than keep on letting me guessing around.

I don't just mean by 'that', it refers to a lot of issues. 

don't mistaken :)

149. Miserable Days

*pheww* 

At last, I finished with the Econ slides.

Working with people who are not paying any responsible, making your life suffer

(I am serious, cause I've just been through this)

Just feel like shouting at her now!

Arrrr....whatever lah, useless group mate!

But thanks for the other 2 mates that helped up with me.

Alright, now will be the time to study for Mid-term, 

is on next week yooo!

Checked my timetable, Monday till Wednesday, then finish.

But is a bit hectic for me,cause cp and statistics are on the same day 

Anyway, will try my best :)

And then, now talk about last Saturday (cause I don't know what else to talk about),

was actually a time for me and my Stats group members to do our assignment..but listen..

went to college and waited for ZH to picked me up to Kajang, Alvin's house

i felt a bit weird inside the car, cause was like me and ZH just knew each other

and i think he is kindda cool fella, real weird! and his driving was real fast =/

but we did talked lah during on the way, something really random about us. haha

anyway, reached Alvin's house, and guessed what, he was not there,

both of us waited for SzeYung and Alvin for an hour.

never mind, THEN, nothing we did for our assignment!

just went there to discussed how to do? =.=

the boys were playing DOTA left me playing the laptop,watching horror movie alone

can you imagine how miserable I were? =(

be there for 8hours, can dieeee!

took some pictures :)

i like this, but my feet ruin it

*so ignore my ugly feet..thankyou*

Oh yeah, his house is real huge

but I can't show the pictures here, cause I think he will not like it

so yeahh :)

Hmm..after the last game(snooker),

ZH sent me home, terrible jam on the high way :(

and we got stuck in PJ areas, but it was a funny scene,though..hahaa

he drove around-and-around at the place, at last using his iPhone GPS guided us. lol

almost stuck and jam for 2hours.

but the way back, he drove more steady 

(i guessed, he knows i got scared with his driving..lol)

so, i reached home later :)

Alright, gonna sleep now!

update soon!

<3

148. Gathering with them :)

Supposedly this should be update few days back

but I need to wait for WeiSan to upload the pictures =.=

maybe, the next time I will bring my own camera. hahaaa

always need to wait for friends to upload :(

Anyway, went brunch and tea-time with the girls on 4th June,

Oh well, nothing much we did, just have some chit-chat and gossiping. lol :P

Met everyone at Station 1 (nearby my house)

had our brunch there,

then till a bit later, we headed to Old Town, yeah nearby my house too. haha

the way was WeiSan drove us :)

WeiSan and me, see my smile..i don't like!

anyway, just miss her after so long didn't meet ( don't think too much,my friend. lol )

Haa..i like this!

Joyee, Jessie and Janice :) 

I feel,i looked pretty nice here. blekk :P

Hmm..and she is KarYee!

reason for me to post this picture is because I snapped it, and it turns out so professional. HAAAAA

Hmm..I guess, this is what I can say about.lol

Just hope to meet everybody soon.

missingyouall!

147. kiss me, kiss kiss kiss me :3

I wanna be with you, is that difficult?
our love has become a task,
that I need to figure out the way to reach you, to catch you.
I have never thought we will ended up this way so fast, baby.
say you love me,
say you would.
but I will not feel like this any longer, maybe not anymore
don't say you love me, if I ask you so.
tell me with your sincere heart, deep down to your heart, baby.
I just heard once or twice from you,
and that are actually enough.
I feel you in me. I feel your love.
take care of me as if I am the one you never want to hurt.
hold me tightly as you never want to let go.
hug me with your warmness as you want me to feel you inside.
kiss me softly as I am the only one you ever want to feel.
never ever gonna forget the kisses, baby.
love me as I am the only one you ever love and ever want.
I wanted these way, will you give it to me, baby?
I can be your queen, if you willing to be my king.
love me now, love me never.
but if you love me. Love me forever.
I will be right here waiting to love you.
will love you once,
love you again,
love you more, and
love you right.
show me the meaning of love.
love me with all you have,
give me all that I want and need
and I will love you the way you want and need and with my whole heart <3


p/s: something random, just a superfluous thoughts. 
**not to mean to a special someone, don't mistaken.

146. Randomness

Oh what a title a give?! lol

Actually I am halfway doing my assignment. But hello, I need a break. hahaaa

Assignments and assignments giving me headache!

But I'll never give up yooo!

Since this is the time I can write something, let me post something random

probably something that might or might not make sense. lol

After viewing all the old old pictures, I decided to show them ;D

oh gosh! can you see how fugly I am? =.= hahaa

the recent pic of mine :) can't really see, that's a good one!

 Ohh this! with my doggy boy, Hugo! is so so so difficult to get a nice posing with him :( 

so whatever! shall just get this one,enough! lol

 He is just too handsome, as a dog! *awwww*

and i love him! <3 cutie doggy!

  Hahaa...is me again! :D

for no reason, somehow I like this pic! hahaa

Hmmm..what else can I write? 

Nothing much, continue seeing the pictures!

Ahh! I remember I used to love this sweet a lot! but now, not really anymore.

Haagen Dazs ice-cream, is my favorite now! :) yummmm!
still remember how it became my favorite, with coffee and chocolate! yummmmy!

145.

Following by days, life is going ups and downs. Nothing seems permanent, and I have no choice but to follow with the waves that will or might brings me to some where further. During these periods of my new Semester there is nothing easy for me to handle. Life is arduous due to the subjects and assignments, I know I have to learn knew things, so I will not give up. FYI, I have 4 assignments on head that needed to hand in next week, my members are all depending on me. I really need to work out and follow up with the studies. Without realizing, Mid-term is in 2 weeks time.


I think is better for me to lay back doing nothing between me and cw. It been more or last 2months we didn't contact, is not that I don't want to, but he refuse to. I don't know what to do next. I know he will be flying back soon, and I just hope to spend some times. Somehow, my sentient tells me, he will not want to meet up with me.

144. LOL in Fitting Room =P

Haaa..after so long didn't hang out with pp Amy

yesterday she went Mid Valley to met us :)

Recently I always go MV after my Friday class. Haha

Just reached MV, we straight away ordered Chattime and so coincidently saw Van

then had our lunch at Sushi King, after a while, Amy tagged us

Sushi was just like our appetizer, so we ate at the stalls at The Gardens

Sha Sha jokes a lot there, the laughter was so loud.

so embarrassing! >.<

YEAH! these were our lunch. yumm yumm!

Now let's see our group picture
ooopss! can't see Sha Sha here..heee

love this effect, love it, just love it! :D

Walked around the mall,
wooow! we saw couples choosing the wedding rings at the " Love & Co. " shop
" awwwww! sweeeeeeeeet! "
hmmm...as usual we imagined a lot. hahaaa :P
" babes, 10 years more yaa, soon, coming soon! lol "
then we decided to try out the gowns in Robinson.
Just can't forget how hilarious the scenes was!
Sha always make me/us laugh.

"sha, your jeans,please. =.- "

the dresses were costly of course! but they look great, so pretty!
so just try them out! heee :)

About 3 something, they went back to college, so left me alone.
while waiting for dad, I went shopping!!
" SHOPPING IS MY HOBBY! "
paced around the mall, Mid Valley!

2 from Nichii and 1 from Cotton-On :)

bought 3 outfits to pampered myself. eeheee :P
btw, is SALES time,people! GRAB AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE!
Happy Shopping! and Happy Spending! lol