I can't tell what makes me more unhappy.
Is a clarity indeed.
There is no reason for me to feel this way.
We are just normal friends, are we?
Why the term friends with benefit sounds so wrong to me?
Are we even at this stage of relationship? Am I refusing this fact? Is unknown to me.
What do you up to?
Can you please don't play mind game with me anymore,
I am pretty tired to be guessing all your thoughts.
Should I turn my thoughts same as them, saying, all you ever wanted is SEX
Is SEX all you ever wanting from me? I really do not wish is a yes.
Again, wasn't what I have given in is enough?
Why do you treat me good sometimes and bad sometimes?
I couldn't be in this hot and cold game any longer.
Can you be more straightforward?
Maybe you did? But I am not smart enough to get the hints?
Gosh, you are really killing the inner me!
Why didn't you text me?
It has been two days we did not message.
And this somehow makes me upset.
I wonder how have you been and what is going on with you.
Why didn't you ask me tonight?
Are you bored and tired with me after so many times to clubs?
Or my acts annoyed you? Or you found someone better?
Or maybe because I texted you, saying "don't talk to me until I am over it"?
I am a little upset at myself on my act that night (what a drunken message!)
I would wonder what if these messages were not sent, the situation will be way different,
cos you somewhat showed you wanted my attention.
Why? Why did I send those texts? Why?!
I keep telling myself that if you cared, you would do something about it.
If you cared, you would’ve stopped me when I told you not to talk to me anymore.
If you cared, I wouldn’t be feeling this way.
Everyone tells me to get rid of you, not to see you any often.
But I just can't.
