142.

=.-

okay, I will not write something like that anymore.

friends are scolding me again and again. haaaa

so yeah, will seldom write stupid posts. heeee!

guess what, I plan to cut my hair soon.

already think of the style. hahaaa

cut it short.

shorter than now.

yesss! is this hair style.

nice?? I freaking love it. 

but I wonder will it suit me or not. haizz

she has a thin thin face shape.

me, damn round please :(

but anyway, what do you think??!

or any suggestion? lol

141.

a year has gone so fast.

I will never forget last year's today.

the every first time happened today.

remember the awkward first date.

remember those first boy's fingers that link to mine.
remember those hands that hold me tight.

remember the first huggies.
remember the laughter and happiness for the first time.

remember the first somebody that I loved.

remember the whole day till night with the first love.

oh well, I believed most girls think;

" Our first love is our last, and our last was our first. "

cause the silly and naive me used to think this way. 

but it will not happens to me anymore.
bye,bye my first love.

p/s; happy 1st anniversary, love ♥ 

140.

Lifeless today, the whole day till now :(
Nothing much I did, went Tesco then Carrefour with mum and elder sis during noon.
Just early in the morning rain heavily, make my day more emo only. wth!
I guessed, my dad know that I am having a bad day.
He drove me and sis around KL then to PJ areas to filled in the emptiness.
Still all the places were all memories =/

Now that, I am in my condo alone.
Just to get rid of stress and noise, but feeling down till very deep.
Lonely lonely night. Emo emo night. haaaa! HELP me,anyone?!

139. " 45 things a girl wants but never ask for "

I found this when I was doing my revision. READ it! is kindda TRUE! lol :P

45 things a girl wants for but wont ask for.

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this? 
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US .. 
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT. 
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT .. 
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED. 

41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

❤

138. 지에 누구

난 내 사랑을 당신이 그리워요

p/s; i really do,love!

137. Remember?

Hmm..why am I so down out of sudden?

you tell me why?

I feel I am so useless, that I can't even control my emotions.

I hate me! :(

Hey boy,

do you remember today? 

yes, 25th May.

if you don't..... is okay.

today, you said 'you like me' , remember?

tomorrow, you said 'you are leaving me' , remember?

today, you make me smile, you make me feel hyper,

you make me dream about us, you make me in fairy-tales.

and soon,

tomorrow, you destroy all; all that I dream, hope and want for us.

just by a sentence " you are no longer needed "

how fast things changed? why? and how come?

you make me question a lot of times.

I HATE YOU, but in the same time I LOVE YOU.

I MISS YOU.

p/s; sorry. what's on my mind? i wonder.

136.

"Hi".

I have waited
 my BBF to text me this 2 alphabets for 1 month.

But, it just didn't happens. 

I know, I should not be so sad,

cause after all,he is just my BBF only.

But somehow,
 I don't feel nice without him
telling me and listening to me.

Where are you?

How are you?

):

135. the 520 day ♥

520 day ♥ 

means " I LOVE YOU" day ♥

hmm..so how did you spent your day,huh? lol

mine?

went to MidValley after my class

Eunice drove, thank you ya :)
5 of us. Me, Janice, Eunice, Aaron and Nicholas.

planned to watch "Pirate and The Caribbean on Stranger Tides"

this movie, I rate it 3/5

not really that nice, to me. heeee :P

but before that, we went to had our lunch at a korean stall :)

sometimes, I love korean food. haaa =P

LOL! what kindda pose?? 

ahhh, look at my hair colour, feel like dye it again. diu!

ohhh! ohh! i like this pic,

you know why, cause I feel is very pro! lol :P

I mean the angle and......(i don't know) :P

after show, Janice and Eunice wanted to taste "Chattime" so all of us headed there.

real crowded, I wonder what so nice about the drinks there? LOL!

while waiting for the drinks, capture some pic

okay, please ignore the ugly, means ME! 

i looked sick, ugly, wtf =.=

okay, the noon is done!

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Huuuuu! Night time! =P

Gather at Devi's Corner before went to Milk Club 

Had dinner there, was mamak. lol

Thanks WanJia for the V.I.P guess list :)

Free entrance into the club. Haaaaaaa 

7 of us there.

Then time getting late, saw a bunch of HELP students there. lol

Clubber face,people! 

Ohh, I added this picture is because of the "Hennessy V.S.O.P" advertisement. Heeeee

(what a reason,right?? hahaaa)

I love this pic the most <3

sexayyyyy,babeh! LOL

this one, I looked scary! Ohh Myyyy!

Haaaa. I didn't get drunk, cause didn't really drink much :)

All this was my first time.

Real enjoyed the crowd and dance floor.

Met some new people there. WanJia's friends. =)

Hmmm, this was what I did for my 520day ;)

and 520 to my ♥ , my babes, my darlings, my friends and people out there!

p/s: specially for my ♥  , 5201314♥.do you?

134. so near yet so far; so close yet I can't reach you.

what seems to be hanging?
is still the feeling of liking, wanting.
now that, my mind is elsewhere, I can't focus on anything.
everything now, is you.
I just need a peace-of-mind, but I just can't.
is my somaesthesia wrong? or it is just the way you want it to be?
or I am just fooling myself again and again?
I don't know. I am confuse.
I am very ambivalent because I am numb with you and the feelings.
" We are here, we are close, yet we can't reach for each other "
I love you.
but I hardly touched your heart.
I love you.
but I just don't know how; how to start.
I have a lot to tell you, but I don't know where; where should I begin.
it takes my courage to start a conversation with you, but yet I did.
you did not, it is because of your ego and aggressive that kill you?
or perhaps, you just have nothing to talk to me? you hate me? the anger is still inside you?
I am sorry for what I have done wrong and the silly decision.
our misunderstanding will never reliefs if we still being like this.
I don't know how to deal with it, but I want us to make things clear.
so that we know there's no regret for our option.
I don't know.
I am not sure.
maybe, the fact is "he no more love you".
sometimes, how I wish all these happened were just a dream.
that I still care and love you. are you? simply, No!


bye!
p/s: is all mix-up, i don't know what I'm talking above.

133. Wesak Day '11

Hello blogger and readers, today is Wesak Day!

so, Happy Wesak Day :)

Oh well, normally I won't go for praying for this day, only my dad. hahaaa

Nothing on during the afternoon. Just went lunch with mum and sis at McD :)

Night time, parents attended a wedding function, my dad mum saw JayChou and Nicholas Tse on the way to the hotel, both of the leng zai were acting in a fast action. Isshhhhhhhhhhh! How I wish I were there too :(

So me and my elder sis went KLCC to meet up Aunty Molly to get our dinner together :)

Some pictures I took in KLCC

A pic with sis :)

quality not good due to my dumbo phone.
*sorry my dear phone..heeeeee*

And yeahhhh! I bought a new bag.
Dad is paying for it, I don't care!! hahaaaaaaaa.
And Yan, will help me to get the 'Longchamp' soooooon! heeeeee *happy face*

I guess that's all for today.
Night people! :D

132. At Wangsa Walk :)

Yesterday, dad, mum and sis went to Ipoh for 1 day trip.

I didn't go, so left me alone at home.

Of cause, I won't stay home doing nothing, cause I can't don't go out. lol. (do you get what I meant? lol )

So yeah, asked dad for permission to drove the car out.

wuuuu! my driving becoming slow and steady. Well, for sure is something good ;0

Life won't get in danger so fleet.

Don't believe you can ask Janice, drove her out 2days in a role.

Met her up at around 2 something.

In car kept on discussed where to get ourselves for lunch and tea-time.

Here and there, here and there. *urghhh*

Question about food, where to eat, always a problem with us,since last time. haaaa XD

Suddenly, out of no where, I asked Janice to called my darling WeiSan out. Was really random.

It has been so long I didn't meet her after high school.

So yeah, decided to go WangsaWalk.

This was my second time there, if I not mistaken. At first, I have no idea where was I heading to until the point where Janice mentioned about T.G.I Friday. hahaaa

Memory very poor =(

Had lunch + teatime at "George Town White Coffee"

Freaking sucks! *ewwwwww*

Waited for WeiSan there. Then she arrived, chatted quite some hours there. hahaaaa

Talked almost all about high school life.

*boooom* both of them 'sapu' me 'kau kau'. wakakakkaka

Oh well, I won't deny I was like a hell princess last time, needed everyone to please me ( so childish of me, BAD! ). hahaa

But hell yeah, I have changed to be a better person, a mature young lady. =P

Now I miss Jessie! Where are you? I wanna hear how bad and naught I was during high school? LOL

picture, picture =P

Me and WeiSan

WeiSan and Janice

A last picture of me alone.

Actually I forced Janice to took for me, telling her at least ONE! heeeee =D

 Really missing high school life, high school friends =(

After about 2 hours spending time chit-chatting went home.

Continued dinner with college mates :)

Thanks lionel for the trequila! (no sure about the spelling)

131.

I am still vexation about my CP result =/

I wonder when will be the day they will post out the re-check grades.

*urghhh* this feeling is killing me. I can't wait! I wanna know it a.s.a.p, and hopefully, a good new, of couse.

Hmm...where is my BBF? what is he doing there?

Has been quite sometimes we didn't contact. 2weeks already =(

Can I say, I miss you? =/

I really do. 

130. Channel X

I keep on waiting for the drama to show up on tv.

Yeah, today is the first episode. Waited for it for so long, the previous Taiwanese drama, Love Buffet (愛似百匯) was so boring. 

Anyway, now I am watching the show, Channel X (國民英雄) 

I really feel the main actor is so freaking hot, lengzai!!

Joe Chen Qiao-En  (陈乔恩)
Okay okay, not this name, sorry, my mandarin sucks!
is actually Joe Zhang Yuan Chang (郑元畅)
thanks Eunice Wong, for the correction, damn FISH!! *paiseh for the wrong info*
heheee XD

if you know him, but anyway, I'll show you his picture. haha

Okay lah, I wanna watch that show now. 

Will post another one later, maybe.. heheeee =P

Ciao Ciao!

129. PROVE IT, IF YOU REALLY DO

What a girl really wants is actually very simple. We need not need a handsome face, as is pleasant to us is enough. We need not need a very smart guy. We need not need a sweet talker. We need not need a romantic personality. All we wants are just very basic; honesty, care and love. Saying ' I LOVE YOU' to her, IF you really mean it, show it, prove it. Don't just say it for a some other purpose, it will end up hurting her most. Because, girls take those words seriously and deeply down to their heart. Make a promise with her, IF you really can do it. Cause most of the time, promises are a temporally comfort. 

128. Happy Mama's Day

Happy Mother's Day to all the mum around the world and TO MY MUM!

" Mum, I love you! " these simple words you may not hear from me, cause I always feel shy when I wanted to say it. But, I hope you can feel it, I love you! <3

Mum, I am sorry that I am not a good girl. 

I am sorry for everything I have done wrong. 

I am sorry for always make you worry about me, especially the night-outing with friends.

But, I will try my best to show you my BEST, Mum <3

edited by me, especially for my mum. heheee =P

I LOVE MY MUM VERY MUCH <3

127. Nostalgia

Gathering with my high school friends today.

Pavilion was the venue and met up at 1pm.

Watched Fast and Furious 5 !

A good show,yooo! Is a must watch movie :)

My Bedd and me,during in the cinema.

during this show Bedd and Sha make so much noise. lol

we did enjoyed the show. but Bedd was like the director. haha. she can predict every single part of it. LOL

Miss My Psycho Gang so much!

Bedd and Racheal! Racheal, last minute pull off :(

At first, there are 12 people who clicked " Attending " but end up left 9 of us. ishh!

RACHEAL! accident,huh?? lol :P

Me, Teha and Bedd :)

Carmen and Jin

After movie, we went Papa Rich for out tea-time :)

some picture before serving our food. heheee

And then after that, me, Carmen and Eunice went home. Sorry, Bedd :(

And again, psycho gang! LMAO =P

<3 joyee, carmen and eunice 

Here I just show some picture only, more in FB!

Hmmmmm!

Now I am missing my high school life. Every single moment in high school was all fun!

How I wish I can go back that time :(

Anyway, I am looking forwards for the next gathering yoooo! :P

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Today, was such a day, that I cannot forget easily, so many things happened.

What a nostalgia?? =/

First, was all about the gathering, I really miss high school. Friends are not complicated as now. Life was much more easier that time. Missing the laughter and joy and all kindda moment that we been through in school. Those are the days I want to go back and play more.

Second, today 7May. We know each other for 1year already. So fast,right?

But nothing really much happened during this period of 1year, cause of some..Ermm... 'misunderstanding' I would said =( But, can I just say, I want back the happy moments we went through?? Or maybe just a simple day, that we felt right and happy on each other? . . . and simply, the answer is No...but those are the days I wanna change to make it right.

p/s: can I say imissyou? iwantyou? iloveyou? again. yes,I really do!

126. Taylor Lakeside

Before I start, this will just a short post.

Lazy to blog nowadays =(

A visit to Taylor Lakeside this afternoon.

Aaron fetched us there, Cwei the road guide. lol

Taylor is a nice place to study, with the beautiful environment.

Might change there for Uni, but still need to discuss with my parents.

Financial stuff and transport =/

Met up my darling Lydia today :)

Miss her so much <3

Talked for an hour later at Starbucks.

Darling Lyddd <3

Joyee darling and Lydia darling :)

barista in Starbucks wrote mt name,

I know nothing to proud off, but yeahhh..lol!

Alright, I ended my post here!

GooodNighttt! Byeee!

125. Depressed

What else can I say??

' D-E-P-R-E-S-S-E-D ! ' 

is the word I can describe my feeling now.

I am in total depress about my result. like seriously.

Well, I had appeal today, but when I asked my lecturer about it, he pulled me down :(

What can I do? I just need to wait after 3weeks to know the result.

Please, prove me right, my six-sense and confident.

124. Semester 3 Result Day.

Went damn early today to college....follow my sis, that's why 

Just reached, saw Aaron, Roy and KangSwee, so 4 of us went Ali Maju for breakfast.

Registry was real crowded, so many of us queue up for the enrollment.

The most shit thing was, they need my SPM cert. call mum. Mum purposely drove to college to hand it to me.

Okay, to be honest, I am not satisfied with my result.

1 Credit, 1 Pass and 1 FAIL. 

I really can't accept I FAIL my CP again. like seriously, I am quite confident this time, but why?

I am for sure gonna appeal, and I hope the outcome is a PASS!

Not happy with this :(

Soon after knowing the result, enrolling and grouping the subjects.

11 of us went MV for lunch and played bowling.

Sushi Zammai for our lunch, my food tasted very bad "yuckkkksss"!

Next, we went for bowling instead of movie. lol

As usual, I am real suck in bowling, got the lowest among them. How bad,right? How sad,right? lol =/

Since some of us need to get back early, we went Chattime for dessert than right away went back.

Real enjoyed every single moment. haha
I was quite happier today :) ,though my result not what I expected lah.
I will do appealing this time, I WILL! WISH ME LUCK PEOPLE!

Tomorrow, starting of Sem 4.
So fast,right? What to do =/
Oh yeahh, I am taking Statistic, Economics Principles, Introduction to Tourism and Hospitality and Computing Principles (but I will appeal and I hope I won't need to take CP again ).
I will work harder for this time, I will make sure I do not need 5th Sem!
Means less outing, less online. More on studies :)
I will try my very best to achieve what I aim for, since he also gives me support :P

p/s: I feel happy,cause of you. I hope you feel the same thing too. Enjoy the moment together today,college,bowling and in car. I don't know whether I am thinking too much, but I hope it is.(the songs)

123. Hard work was done, praying for the best.

I am so nervous, worry and scare about my result.Why?

Because it will be releasing tomorrow morning =/

I can't really sleep now, guess wouldn't have a good night sleep for tonight,though.

Hopefully, my hard worked will brings a accepting result. Meaning, no Fail! *pray hard*

Good Luck, to myself and friends ya :)

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Yesterday, chatted with my good friend and sis :)

What they said, were all seem like I should reconsider about my decision towards the decision I've chosen.

Honestly, I am confuse where or what should I go for?

I really can't decide after hearing them =/

Maybe I should just follow what's going on, which is no guarantee conclusion.

We chatted that night (well, this was not my first time started the convo ), and I guess, blocked me, was what happened. I used to be worry if no respond, but this time this feeling didn't appear.
Is that a good thing, or a bad one?

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Alright, I felt a little bit more happier just now.
He started chatting with me. haahaaa :]
Opened with a random topic, but yeahhhh! I guess, is a good beginning,huh?? lol =D
( if only if I am going the way I am choosing )

Oh well, as usual we always talked about studies, cause he is like so smart and of cause higher level than me.
Though, sometimes I will feel a little embarrass talking about studies and results, but he is one of the person I adore for.
ilikesmartguys, whodon't,right?! =P


Once again, I wish ALL OF US,GOOD LUCK FOR TOMORROW! :)