99. let-loose-love

At some point you will realize you have done too much for someone or something, that the next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It's not that you're giving up, and it's not like you shouldn't try. It's just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours would eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be. -letlooselove

Does this sound so true?? To me is definitely a 'yes'. I've tried hard to get back what I have lost, but it doesn't seems working. So all I have to do is to learn just let-go things. I am afraid of rejection from those who I treat them specially. I don't like feeling 'reject' or say 'no'. But I know I can't be so childish mind, I have to accept this feeling sometimes, cause not all things will go the way I want. I know,sometimes rejection makes us feel hurt and weak, but we need to bear with it. Be strong and learn from it this is what we can do.

Somehow, I feel a little bit angry at him. Maybe you are just scared to says 'No' to me, but why at the first place you gave me some hope that you might come. I've done so much changes for the outing, I also don't understand why am I keep-on changing it. Okay, maybe your 'I'll see first' is giving me hint that you are not going, maybe I am being naive that i don't get your hint. Well, why can't you just straight-to-my-face reject me, as if you never reject or hurt me before. This makes me really frustrated. You might not know, how many times I have changed the date. Oh well, I don't think is a matter anymore now. Anyway, I am just throwing out my feeling here. And thanks again to my babes to make me think better and feel better. <3

p/s : i am angry,i really really do >.<