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Just back from drink at Shantini, Tropicana City Mall with Leina :)
Had been so long we didn't meet up, I guess almost a year plus, until today we met
The passed few weeks we had already planned to get a drink together, but there were always pullback at last minute
Really had a good time together with the talked, the drink, the environment.
She taught me a lot of life values, which really open up my mind about almost every thing that I am dealing with, she is being mature, like serious, not with all the childish mindset. And of cause, she more mature thinking compare to me.
Honestly, I thought I was the only one who suffer from all kindda problems, but now I realized many people out there suffering more pain and hurt than I do.
Basically, we spent time telling out about our personal problems which are kindda confusing to us.
She make me feel like I had wasted my time waiting and hoping for nothing at that point. Though this was hurt but I realized I am doing something silly, and I will stop myself from becoming more silly.

Leina,
3 years, don't just waste that time you guys were having lots of time together with those memories.

But I do wish, you are choosing the right way to handle your relationship, if that make you feel much more happier then you should go on with that decision. And of cause, I am here to support you. 

I am sure, you are way mature than me :) 

I admit, sometimes I being ridiculous and naive especially when comes to love, but I am glad that you are here to help me out from this thoughts. The things that you said were all rights, I agreed! :O

And thanks for reminding me so many times about 'that'. haha

And 'that' makes me feel I really done too much for him for the pass 6-7 months, "that yes I should stop!"
After the talked, I really felt I was a bit childish when having my relationship. lol. and yes, I felt the same too, this things have just done too fast. I regretted it, but there is no point for me to think about it again and again. You too, what's done is done, just forget and move on.
Life is complicated and rumours are here and there, but if he really cares and believes about what other people said, then you know what to do next, as you and me also said "what's the point when either both don't trust on the other one", right? I went through this before, so ya, seriously really no use being in a relationship without trusty and honesty.
I hope, you really made up your mind before deciding :) and I am sure I will be happier with what and who I am now. Let go is what I am doing since that incident happened, I will not be a dumbo any longer, I just waited and done too much :) haha. No more fantasy. No more, really no more!
And hell yeah, we still have a long way to think about the marriage and further, so we should enjoy first, and care less about it now. lol. freedom is what we have and need now. =)

p/s: we will find out happiness sooner or later, it just takes some time!