Reasons, too busy for mid-term exam, need to do last minute study and burn-my midnight oil =( and also nothing to say.
Well, I know I should study before this, so that I wont get so stress-up during exam, but I'm sorry I just can't.
Today is my last day for mid-term! HURAYYYY *clap* :)
After exam, need to do MS assignment. Went to some places and took some pic. (will be upload next time)
come back to this,
tell me 'how' or 'what' should I feel now?, I had been asking this question to myself thousand times after I saw and got to know it.
making tons of question in my brain, " Is that real? " " How come? " "Why? " "Why that person?"
when people asked me, can I accept it?
honestly, I can't but I know I have to. so I answered them, yes,I can and I will face the fact.
" Joyee, is already 3 fucking months! "
you know, you can't
you know, it will never happen
you know, it won't work out
you know, it will never be the same
so WHY??
FML!
I don't wanna talk more bout it, cause there is nothing to be change, if what i saw is the fact.
so just screwed it!
and just accept it!
THAT'S what I can do now!
babe, I really need you now, beside me, holding me, supporting me.
I wanna cry, not just because of that but a lot more, I had been keeping these kindda feelings for so long.
I know I am useless.
I know I always find you for comfort.
I know I am disturbing you.
I know I am annoying and irritating. (sometimes, when you told me not to, yet I am doing it)
and I need my mummy!
I can't show my sad face and tears to her anymore,
she supported and gave me tons of advices...
bringing me to shopping, eat, walk around to make me feel better.
iloveyou,mum.
but now, I don't think is the right time for me to tell you.
cause I think you will be mad at me.
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